I hope that I die

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by dink, Jan 19, 2007.

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  1. dink

    dink Well-Known Member

    I ABSOLUTLY hate my life. I want to die. I am so sick of everything going wrong and nothing ever going right.
     
  2. bipolarkitty

    bipolarkitty Well-Known Member

    What's going on dink?
     
  3. dink

    dink Well-Known Member

    I want to be dead!
     
  4. bipolarkitty

    bipolarkitty Well-Known Member

    Why? I'd like to help, if I can.
     
  5. dink

    dink Well-Known Member

    I doubt that anyone can help..but here you go...

    My boyfriend has a pool team, there is this B*TCH that he considers a friend. SHe was supposed to pick me up so that I could go out with them tonight, but she decided to ignore my texts and my calls. SHe totally hangs on him and manipulates him. He knows how much all of this bothers me but it doesn't seem to bother him. I was texting him and he kept basically telling me that he was busy....so I left it alone. He text me later to tell me that they won and that they were going out to celebrate. He knows that I wanted to go and that I DIDN"T want to have to spend yet another night at home alone crying all night. He always makes excuses for her and it infuriates me.

    This is just tonight. Everything else in my life is going to h*ll too.
     
  6. dink

    dink Well-Known Member

    I know that no one cares and rightly so.
     
  7. bipolarkitty

    bipolarkitty Well-Known Member

    I'm sorry that happened. Sounds like you've had a rough night. Have you tried talking to your boyfriend about this? Does he know how it makes you feel when he treats you this way?

    That's not true. I care.
     
  8. dink

    dink Well-Known Member

    He knows. It is the ONLY thing that we ever fight about.
     
  9. bipolarkitty

    bipolarkitty Well-Known Member

    If he knows, and it's a big enough problem that you guys fight about it (more than once, it sounds like), I have to wonder why he would treat you that way. You deserve someone who treats you with respect and understanding.
     
  10. dink

    dink Well-Known Member

    I love him though. He says that it isn't fair to make him choose. I may as well just go ahead and kill myself.
     
  11. bipolarkitty

    bipolarkitty Well-Known Member

    I know you love him. But will you do something for me? Take a few deep breaths and try to calm down a little. I know it's hard, but try. You're hurting a lot right now, and I'd like you to take a step back to give yourself time to think. Do you have msn?
     
  12. dink

    dink Well-Known Member

    No, I have yahoo IM.
     
  13. bipolarkitty

    bipolarkitty Well-Known Member

    I can talk to you through msn to a yahoo account. If you'd like to talk on im, it might be faster. You can PM me with your yahoo address. I'd like to help you, if you want someone to talk to. :hug:
     
  14. dink

    dink Well-Known Member

    I sent it to you. I don't know if you will get it or even want to respond...I understand if you don';t
     
  15. bipolarkitty

    bipolarkitty Well-Known Member

    I'm always here for you. Thanks for sending the PM. Sometimes I don't get them very quickly. Not sure why. :blink:
     
  16. immure

    immure Account Closed

    dump his sorry ass
     
  17. dink

    dink Well-Known Member

    I really wish that it was that simple. We talked last nigh for about two hours and I am still drained. I have a killer headache and I am still at a point where I don't know what to do. I feel as though I am in love with him 100% but he isn't sure anymore. I don't know what to do or how to go about doing it. I love him and this hurts me a lot...
     
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