I can't deal with school because I am just so deeply depressed. My father is one of the main reasons I couldn't go. He told one of my teachers what was going on with me, and I just can't seem to face it. By not going to school I'm hurting my mom. She says I just don't understand, but in truth she doesn't understand. I am feeling hopeless, and the meds I'm on are not helping. I just want to escape, but if I even mentioned killing myself I would be back in the hospital. I just can't take it anymore. My parents won't stop pressuring me to do better than what they did, and it's tearing me to shreds. I have basically lost my best friend, and the only thing that is keeping me here is my sister. I don't even think she cares at times. I just want to escape.