I don't want to be here anymore. It isn't worth it. I can never have what it is I need and want in this life. There is no hope. I was screwed from birth. Had no chance at all. There isn't anything to look forward to except pain, poverty, old age, lonliness. I need to end this...now. No one understands unless they've been where I am. It's not flawed thinking. It's not black and white thinking. It is the facts. There...is...no...hope.