to bring myself to help these days. This isnt like me at all. I help when I'm down and out. It helps to keep me with one foot in reality. I'm sorry. I read the threads and have the support and words in my head but I cant get them out. I'm physically sick have been for 3 weeks now. And it isnt letting up. I'm stuck in a down swing that keeps me hurting and attempting. Have had a few personal things happen. And I keep thinking that others here that I offered my hand too may think I was full of shit. I do want to help but I just cant right now. I'm sorry.