I can't stop cutting, I don't know how to, I feel numb and dead, yet SI makes me feel alive, yet I don't want to be alive. Its confusing??????? I been SI for the last 45mins, and Im running out of room.. I dont want to keep on doing it, Im trying to just write so I don't cut. Overdosing is in my head also.. What do I do??? I feel so scared, alone and numb.