I don't know what to do anymore. I cry every night and moan at every little thing. I wish I was dead. I have tried suicide again only to fail. I am nothing but a failure anyway. I am fat and worthless. Everyone has even said. I wish my suicide attempts worked because there is no point in living. I self harm. I probably sound so pathetic. I can't stop gambling. I play computer games just to get me out this life. I don't know what to do. If you are great enough to read this then you must be great.