I've been signed off work to get better. I'm not getting better. I'm getting worse. I can't cope with life any more. Amazingly I can still put on a good face to other people but it's getting harder. I don't want to do this any more. I want to die. I want to stop. Everything is horrible. Nothing is good any more. I have to hang on until I've paid off my overdraft because I can't leave my debts for other people to deal with, but I wish I could do that faster than I am doing now. I need it to happen soon.