Everyday is the same, it doesn't feel like life. It feels like a chore. I've lost it, i spend all day in bed. I just feel like breaking down. Part of me feels so alone, like...I have nothing. I just keep thinking, death will be so easy for me. I'll never have to worry again. I use to be happy, I use to love life. That hasn't been me in a long time. There is no one I can talk to, no one I can trust. Im 24 and ive never had a relationship, sometimes I feel like thats missing. But how do I even start. Im gay so I just feel like its harder to meet someone. I just feel like everything in my life is going downhill and will keep going downhill no matter how much I try to work at it. Ive given up.