I recently stated seeing another therapist hoping that she would be able to help me but i was just kidding myself. Been seeing her now for about 4 weeks and she has told me that she is completely phased about what to do with me. she thinks that i should go see a doctor and get put on meds. when i started seeing this new therapist i was optimistic about it and thought she could help me but i just feel that i am to far gone and am ready to die. with every session i have with her apart of me dies alittle knowing that there is nothing that can help me now. I am currently planning my suicide and am looking at methods and whilst i am planning i feel a wierd sense of relief, it feels good to know that i will soon die. I have just always felt like i should never have been born. I hate this fucking world there is nothing worth living for. life is just dimeaning and pointless there is no higher purpose for any of us there is no reason for anyone of us to be alive i just hate this world so dam fucking much.