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I just dont know

#1
NOt sure how to start this so here it goes. Between the ptsd and depression I am at my end. I feel like I dont really matter, or that people dont care. I also feel like I have become too much for people. I know certain people told me i am not too much, but I just feel like I am. I dont know I just feel like there is no hope for me anymore. I just want to be the happy girl I once was again. I dont know I just feel so sad right now. I dont know its dialysis, its my parents drinking, its financial issues, its not being able to find a new place to live, its feeling lonely like no one wants to deal with me. Its knowing that I found the man of my dreams and yet I will never have the wedding I always wanted. I guess maybe there is a lot of grief that I am going through, I dont know but its hard. I just want to sit down and cry. I dont know just too much I wish would just go away. I guess it would just be nice to be held while I cry and have someone wipe my tears away.
 
#2
Sorry that you're going through this
I dont know its dialysis, its my parents drinking, its financial issues, its not being able to find a new place to live, its feeling lonely like no one wants to deal with me
Do you feel like saying more about these things?

Its knowing that I found the man of my dreams and yet I will never have the wedding I always wanted
Why is that?
I guess it would just be nice to be held while I cry and have someone wipe my tears away
Is that something that your boyfriend will do for you sometimes?
 
#3
Sorry that you're going through this

Do you feel like saying more about these things?
I dont know it just is all things that are bothering me.

Why is that?
He doesn't want to get married

Is that something that your boyfriend will do for you sometimes?
Yeah he will hold me but I cant cry in front of him he told me that.
 
#6
Oh. Well, as far as reasons go for not wanting someone to cry, I guess that's not so bad.

Still, it would be nice if someone could both hold you and let you cry
 

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#11
It sounds like you're carrying a lot of weight and you feel overwhelmed. Do you find a way to get your mind off things? Just know we're here for you.
 

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#13
I'd love to be able to do that. Magic someone there to hold you whilst you cry.
Sending hugs.....
Thinking of you rabs.... I hope this week is easier.
 

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