I don't know why I'm here really. Just killing time. I was trying to find a place where there were similar people who wanted to die. I don't know why. I don't talk anymore about my problems, because I just don't have the energy. I tried to take my life on Wednesday and was really sick for a few days. I rarely cry much these days. I just stay in my home. I don't even walk outside to take out the trash. I posted an ad to find someone to help me clean my home some. They will be here on wednesday which seems like forever.