I just dont know

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by emack54, Sep 7, 2012.

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  1. emack54

    emack54 Well-Known Member

    The last few days I have been fantasizing aboud comitting suicide again. I look at something even an ordinary inanimate object and think to myself, hmm..how can I hurt/kill myself with that. I havent had these irrational thought patterns in a long time. Thats all I have been thinking about the last few days. I just want to say screw it and give in. I have spent the last three hours just riding the city bus with really no place or direction. I feel almost like I am going invisible like a ghost. Plus I have been reading about others who have killed themselves, wishing that was me.
     
  2. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Emack...I am so glad you are here...is there a professional you can talk to? These are such difficult feelings to deal with alone. I know how it feels to move without purpose while others are around me...have traveled subways in that way myself...I have found that sharing with others and a trusted professional helped by find some direction...hope you are safe
     
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