I honestly don't see any point to anything anymore. I used to be able to delude myself for a while, making promises that doing this or that will lead to something better, or situations will change for the positive soon. But lately I can't even fool myself into believing my own lies. What do most people see as a reason to justify their life? When I look around at the world, my thoughts turn straight into 'hate this' and 'hate that' everywhere I look. Nearly everything society is built around I find pointless and unnecessary, and don't feel like being a part of, yet here I am, stuck and wanting out. Nothing seems to make sense for me anymore. My only reasons for still being here are the fear of pain and wanting to say goodbye to one last person before I go. Aside from that, I have no hobbies, no friends, essentially no family, and no interest in anything anymore. So what am I not seeing that so many others are? Why can't I fool myself into enjoying life and actually giving reason to my existence? Am I over-thinking things, or maybe just too stupid to actually understand something that's probably really simple...?