with this anymore. I spent 20yrs with my wife,we were not apart more than a few nights the whole time. Now its been 7months without her,i have no hope and really don't care anymore. Sometimes i don't even want to see my kids,it reminds me of the pain, the pain that never leaves. It eats at me day and night,i almost never sleep,i'm angry all the time the hatred is building and i'm afraid maybe i'll end up hurting someone else besides myself. And what does it matter anyway? i can't work i'm broke any day now they'll be putting me out of my home,so i have no hope.