I feel so terrible and I just don't want to live anymore. I've tried getting help, but nothing helps. I don't understand why I have to suffer. Something is wrong with my brain and I don't know what it is. I've already been to the hospital twice and they weren't able to help me. I feel so desperate and just don't know what to do. Suicide seems the only way out, but I'm not able to do it. I'm so tired of suffering. I struggle to make it through each day. I'm not able to do the things that I used to. It's really scary. I just can't understand what is wrong. I'm afraid that I am going to be messed up for the rest of my life and just don't know what to do. I've been diagnosed with Schizophrenia but am not sure if that is causing my current problems. I feel so lost.