When I think of doing myself in, I just don't worry about the people I leave behind. I know it is very selfish. But I figure if they don't like it they can come and join me. My husband today said, just stop thinking about it, think about him and my mother and what it would do to them. Once I thought about departing this world from work and I got dobbed in and he thought the reason I didn't go through with it was the effect on my colleagues and that thought never even entered my mind. I did not get caughter doing anything at work but merely told someone the plan I had in mind. But on the other hand I am a very thoughtful person about other people in other areas.