i just go nowhere

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by meme333, Nov 18, 2011.

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  1. meme333

    meme333 Well-Known Member

    I feel like I go nowhere.
    I try and go nowhere...still nobody caring...still alone.

    damn i hate the holidays....

    I've been trying in the past couple of months to not get carried away with the suicidal feelings...trying to fight them....oh but they come back

    I can't shake it.

    I had a nice evening shopping with my friend and her sister...just for toys but it was okay and I was happy. Then my mood shattered.

    I had a bad therapy session about a week ago...well on Monday...feeling down.
    My T always say things like "I feel helpless when you are like this" or "I don't know how to respond to you when you are like this" ...stuff alone that line.
    I wasn't being horribly blah...just stating the facts.
    It's easy for her to say I want what other have but I'll never have it.
    They will say you can "make" your own family...whatever...never truly the same..it's way more conditional

    I feel so bad right now. Just contemplating bad things. I hate myself.
  2. may71

    may71 Well-Known Member

    what is it that you want?
  3. cutiepie132

    cutiepie132 Well-Known Member

    I think that is obvious.. People in your life who care, a family, and no one wants to feel depressed and suicidal.

    When you feel down, it's also nice to have someone to talk to about it.

    :pinkrose: Here's you some flowers meme,, in hopes that you feel better!
  4. meme333

    meme333 Well-Known Member

    thanks...yes, that's what I want...I want to belong etc etc.
    the same thing everybody wants I think
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