Thanks for your support, let me tell you what’s happened.
So, a few months ago everything was (mostly) fine. Then it turned sour in September. At the beginning of the school year, my grades really started to slide (even though I’m usually a good student), my mum and dad started arguing (and believe me, it’s basically like a tornado), my parents don’t have time to listen to me anymore. I used to have friends, but I’m not in their class this year, so I’ve been drifting away... Every day is the same: I struggle to get myself out of bed, I go to school, I go through the school day barely conscious, and come home and just stay in bed and mope... What’s more, I play football (the real one, the one you play with your feet) and I’m not that good, so I’m being mocked for that too... Now everybody thinks they have a right to just push me or kick me in the ass every time I’m walking by. It’s getting unbearable, and I often lose my temper and unleash a flurry of very rude words at those who are bullying me, which earns me even more mockery. I have Asperger’s syndrome, so I’m struggling to fit in at school, the others are chatting while I’m sitting there drawing maps of Slovenia or whatever. When I come home, my dad’s not home until 7, so I don’t see him on weekdays. And my sister blabs. A lot. So I can’t really tell her what’s happening. I only have one friend, and I feel that while he is a fun person to be around, I can’t really tell him secrets or anything (I’ve distrusted him ever since he got into my Discord account)... And for some reasons, my average has dropped from 18/20 (we have a grading system out of 20 here), to around 10/20. My parents are really just content with grounding me without offering to help out with my school work. I just wonder sometimes if this is the life I want to live, overweight (I’m overeating as a sort of coping mechanism, every day I come back with licorice from the supermarket and putting on a lot of weight), bad grades with parents who don’t really give a damn about helping me improve.