I've been watching this forum for as long as I can remember. I was a part of another forum but people there just did not seem that supportive, so I quit. I won't go into details about myself. I don't think it matters and it'll only make your eyes hurt. I'm just, well...I don't find any point in life anymore. I feel empty. I feel no emotions. I've forgotten what it's like to feel happy. I'm not even sure if I'm sad anymore. It's gotten way past that. I can't describe it or the pain. Nothing is right anymore. I hate myself. I tried to tease myself by lying to myself that everything is 'alright'. Well things are not alright. I don't have anyone to talk to about this. I tried to once but it all went downhill so I'm not trying again. I'm sick of this world. I just want to sleep all day so I at least get the chance to escape reality. Nothing's true in my life anymore. I need someone to talk to. I'm pretty sure I'm going to end it soon. I've gotten it all planned up in my head; I've even given out hints to my friends but they don't seem to have gotten any of it. That's for the better, I guess. I just really need someone.