I just signed up for the forum so I could spill my guts really
I'm 19 years old and my life has been shite
My mother hung herself when I was 2
My maternal uncle died in the navy
My maternal granfather died
Leaving me with my abusive father
He bet me and hit me, mentally abused me
My paternal grandmother died
Totally on my own with a monster
The beatings got so bad I was in and out of hospital and put in foster care
Only to be given back to thar scum
My "father" then remarried this woman was a life saver after a year of him abusing the two of us she got me out of there and for that I was in and out of safe houses
I cut all contact with my father
The mental scarring that left affected me for years still does
Now I'm in a relationship that I can't get out of I love this man so mug but he treats me like shit, not physically but he lies and lies and lies and he is one more in a long list of people that I've loved that's hurt me...
So I tired to end thing and move back home because I live with hk
....showed up at my step mum and got told to leave and now I have no where to live
I just want to give up I really do
I am thankful that my life could be worse and I always try and be positive but everything always goes wrong...
And the only thing I can see is that I'm the common factor and to stop it is to end my life. I've tried many times before...
I want to live but I don't if my life is never going change, I can't imagine where my life is going to go now homeless with noone and i just want to go...
Sorry I know people are in worse situations sorry
I'm 19 years old and my life has been shite
My mother hung herself when I was 2
My maternal uncle died in the navy
My maternal granfather died
Leaving me with my abusive father
He bet me and hit me, mentally abused me
My paternal grandmother died
Totally on my own with a monster
The beatings got so bad I was in and out of hospital and put in foster care
Only to be given back to thar scum
My "father" then remarried this woman was a life saver after a year of him abusing the two of us she got me out of there and for that I was in and out of safe houses
I cut all contact with my father
The mental scarring that left affected me for years still does
Now I'm in a relationship that I can't get out of I love this man so mug but he treats me like shit, not physically but he lies and lies and lies and he is one more in a long list of people that I've loved that's hurt me...
So I tired to end thing and move back home because I live with hk
....showed up at my step mum and got told to leave and now I have no where to live
I just want to give up I really do
I am thankful that my life could be worse and I always try and be positive but everything always goes wrong...
And the only thing I can see is that I'm the common factor and to stop it is to end my life. I've tried many times before...
I want to live but I don't if my life is never going change, I can't imagine where my life is going to go now homeless with noone and i just want to go...
Sorry I know people are in worse situations sorry