I never knew my dad my mum left my dad when I was just a baby and took me with her and we ended up traveling all around the world until we came to England when i was 9. life was good when we settled down I had nice friends a nice school then a few years passed and I remember I was 11 and I was at the buss stop with my mum and well she saw someone...that someone was my dad he was with some of his friends she told me we had to run so we did we found a place to hide and rang the police the police came and we were ok And well basically my dad had tried to kidnap me and make me join a religious thing. I think when he was with my mum he was also abusive. A few years later my dad found me on Facebook (I'm 13 at this point) and starts sending me some messages so I block him and try and forget about the messages...and by blocking him I was running away from my problems witch maybe wasn't the best idea because after I blocked him he sent a message to one of the people in my friends list who goes to my school I didn't find out about the message he sent to the person from my school until later (I'll talk About that soon) so I remember I unblocked him because I felt bad for just ignoring him so I sent him a message basically saying I want to meet him and talk to him when I'm an adult then he starts sending loads of messages about his life and starts preaching stuff and I decide to just read the messages but not reply because I want to talk instead to him when I'm older. So at this point I haven't told anyone about the messages because I don't have anyone to talk to and I don't wanna tell my mum So yesterday I was at a friends house with like 6 other people and we were so we were drinking and stuff when this girl (that I barely know ) tells me that a month ago my dad had bin sending her messages that said he was trying to get in contact with me and it was embarrassing and I nearly cried but i didn't. So yeh...I feal stressed I dunno if I should tell my mum about the messages and combined with my social anxiety I just feal horrible. The thought of my dad makes me feel sad I have nobody to talk to I recently fell out with my best friend I am really introverted I don't have very much fun when I'm with people unless I'm drunk I do bad in school I need alcohol to be confident I would type more but iv hurt my hand recently so it's hard to write.