I have nothing. I moved in with my mom after I lost my job and my house foreclosed. Ok, I moved on. My mom and I don't get along and she hits me, tells me she hates me and gangs up on me with my younger brother and sister. They talk smack and make up stories about me to my family so I blow em off. Big deal. I had to move, no job and lease was up so I moved to San Diego. The guy I have been dating for a year and 8 months but still can't handle the term boyfriend/girlfriend lives here and is like, move closer. Get away from your family, I'll be here for you. So I find a telemarketing job, rent out a room from this guy a few blocks away from my guys house and all should be good. But it isn't. I move in and his room mate/brother is all, she's gonna be here all the time now. So he comes to see me and his brothers like oh great now you're gonna be gone all the time. So... he barely hangs with me now. I have been here nine days and we've seen each other 4 times. He came over last night and left early this morning so I got to spend the whole day alone. He lied to me a few days ago, went out with his friends and had some stay over but told me he was staying in all night and going to bed early. He says we are friends but he blows me off. I'm fucking done. I am lonely I don't have a friend in the world and I might lose this job already. I have such low self esteem I let myself get used so I wont be all alone. What's wrong with me? I hate myself and I hate my life.