This is rather difficult for me to say, but I'll try anyway:
This evening I realized I am a disgusting and evil excuse for a human being.
Towards others I pretend I'm apathic or even a bit caring, but that is all a lie.
I'm filled with hatred towards everyone and everything. Evil thoughts continuously run through my mind. If I were to expose my true self I'd probably be banned from this forum and kicked out of the house by my parents.
I don't even feel bad about having these thoughts. What I feel bad about is pretending to be someone I am not. And being frustrated because I'm powerless to act on these thoughts.
Is this normal? Do other people feel like this?
I doubt it, I feel like I'm the most evil human being ever.
I don't know how to handle these thoughts Please help.
I can't tell this to my therapist. I like her and I want her to like me.
I think if I were religious I'd go to a priest and try to get an exorcism or something :\
This evening I realized I am a disgusting and evil excuse for a human being.
Towards others I pretend I'm apathic or even a bit caring, but that is all a lie.
I'm filled with hatred towards everyone and everything. Evil thoughts continuously run through my mind. If I were to expose my true self I'd probably be banned from this forum and kicked out of the house by my parents.
I don't even feel bad about having these thoughts. What I feel bad about is pretending to be someone I am not. And being frustrated because I'm powerless to act on these thoughts.
Is this normal? Do other people feel like this?
I doubt it, I feel like I'm the most evil human being ever.
I don't know how to handle these thoughts Please help.
I can't tell this to my therapist. I like her and I want her to like me.
I think if I were religious I'd go to a priest and try to get an exorcism or something :\