I take a look around me at school, and see all these close friends being close and inside-joking. I don't have that kind of friend at school. The only friend that I have like that lives miles and miles away and even now she's made a lot of friends and is starting to ignore me. :sad: And it doesn't even end there. I get home and stay on my safe haven, my room and my computer.. But jeebus forbid I check myspace and everyone has "mary sue <33s her bff jillie bob : D : D : D" and I'm left with one or two people who comment me every month. But it goes on! My brother beats me up every time I say that wrestling is stupid. It slips out of my mouth, and I get punched and slapped. I told my mom that he ate my powdered donut and after I hung up the phone, he jumped on me and started punching me. I tell my mom and she says, "Oh, he's just playing. ." Dad gets pissed and comes over and starts criticizing our house. Keep in mind it isn't his house, and he lives with his girlfriend. Yet, he comes over and says, "This isn't clean enough. Your room is disgusting, take the cup off the table. The house smells like cat shit. You're not doing anything for your mother, you don't care about her. One day we're going to die and you're not going to have anything. I grew up with an uncle who did this and that so this is nothing compared to that. Your depression is because of the divorce, chemical imbalance is bullshit." After my family dies, I may as well commit suicide. Or even tomorrow. I don't know how long I can keep my bullshit happy routine up.