I feel that my life will never change. I just want to die. I have no hope. I feel like my whole identity is just a scapegoat for others. I have been bullied, attacked and taken advantage of my whole life. I am tired of waking up every morning with the same pain and hopelessness. I used to always have faith in myself and my goals and being a motivated person. But now nothing seems worth it. Nothing in my life ever gets made right. Nobody is ever held accountable for the things they have done to me. My parents phsyically and verbally abused me and they never suffered anything because of it...but I had to suffer the resentment, eating disorders, low self-esteem and depression of being abused as a child. I was sexually assaulted by an acquaintance over a year ago, and I have minded my own business, going to work and school and just trying to cope but he is still going around lying on all his social media accounts acting like I am a slut or something. I just want to die. I'm tired of it. I don't want to keep working and keep "being responsible" and keep hoping for a good life with a good spouse and a peaceful life when it just seems like no matter how hard I try or how hard I work my life will always just be ruined by pain and that I'll never be happy ever again.