I just slipped...

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by cloud9, May 7, 2010.

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  1. cloud9

    cloud9 Well-Known Member

    I guess this is going to sound a little strange to many of you.

    Last year I was having trouble breaking a masturbation and watching pornography habit. I'd been off it for over ten months. I was sooo close to hitting the one year mark. Then I had to go and screw it up yesterday. I'm so disappointed in my self for letting this slip. I guess I was just alone and I took advantage of that fact. I should have known better and fought off the urge. *Sigh*. Fortunately I didn't watch any porn so it wasn't a total loss. I just really wanted to exercise self-control and I feel I failed at that yesterday.

    You know I wanted a grip over something in my life. I thought I was actually winning at this. I screwed up 10 months worth of self-restraint. And for what? I still feel shitty after it. I always did feel shitty after it.
  2. boo

    boo Well-Known Member

    It's not like it's bad for you... and in any case if you really want to, go ask your doctor for some kind of shot that will reduce your sexual desire. Hope i helped a bit..
  3. cloud9

    cloud9 Well-Known Member

    I'm not going to let this "slip" dictate me. I'm going to beat this.
  4. shamps

    shamps Well-Known Member

    You havent done anything thats classed as "unatural" or"bad"...give yourself a break.Theres always another day to start again if you really feel the need to do this...
  5. lonercarrot

    lonercarrot Well-Known Member

    There's nothing wrong with masturbating or watching porn.. Are you religious or something?
  6. Concave

    Concave Active Member

    Porn can actually be quite an addiction. While masturbation per se is not bad, porn can be very addicting for some. 10 months is a long time, don't be down on yourself. You have recognized your problem and you're working on it. And like you said you didn't watch porn, so not all is lost.
  7. Aurora Gory Alice

    Aurora Gory Alice Well-Known Member

    Everybody slips sometimes, but don't let yourself feel disheartened. Like you said YOU'RE GOING TO BEAT THIS.
    Before you say you had an addiction to porn and masturbation, this time all you did was masturbate after ten months. Masturbation is completely natural and you shouldn't feel bad about it, I guess what you wanted to do was get it under control and it sounds to me like you have done that. You should be mighty proud of yourself.
  8. cloud9

    cloud9 Well-Known Member

    Thank you for the support :hug:
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