I guess this is going to sound a little strange to many of you. Last year I was having trouble breaking a masturbation and watching pornography habit. I'd been off it for over ten months. I was sooo close to hitting the one year mark. Then I had to go and screw it up yesterday. I'm so disappointed in my self for letting this slip. I guess I was just alone and I took advantage of that fact. I should have known better and fought off the urge. *Sigh*. Fortunately I didn't watch any porn so it wasn't a total loss. I just really wanted to exercise self-control and I feel I failed at that yesterday. You know I wanted a grip over something in my life. I thought I was actually winning at this. I screwed up 10 months worth of self-restraint. And for what? I still feel shitty after it. I always did feel shitty after it.