ok that's it, i cant take it anymore, who said life was beautiful??screw him, it's beautiful for some people, painful for the rest, i solve problems for people because I am good at it, but i cant solve my problem because its the worste kind, someone would tell me i have nothing to lose i might as get a hobby and forget the bad things, I CANT !!!! I hate my family so much !!!!!!everytime i try to do something new I get mad at!!! I cant follow a healthy lifestyle !!!!!! I cant talk about it, i cant do anything, I can only wait to get more pain !!!!!!!!!I feel like the devil is in me, all i can think of is how to end my life, I quit bodybuilding, going out, watching movies, talking with friends....I CANT DO ANYTHING!!!!
I feel worthless, everywhere i go i get mocked at, i'm the blacksheep, the ugly duckling, i try to rise but i always fall, i always get humiliated and face disappointment and pain everywhere at everything, what have i done??all i ever did was help people !!!! most of the good guys are gone now, abroad, i'm left alone....I am in pain !!!!:cry:
I feel worthless, everywhere i go i get mocked at, i'm the blacksheep, the ugly duckling, i try to rise but i always fall, i always get humiliated and face disappointment and pain everywhere at everything, what have i done??all i ever did was help people !!!! most of the good guys are gone now, abroad, i'm left alone....I am in pain !!!!:cry: