I Just Wanna Die !!!!!!!!

ok that's it, i cant take it anymore, who said life was beautiful??screw him, it's beautiful for some people, painful for the rest, i solve problems for people because I am good at it, but i cant solve my problem because its the worste kind, someone would tell me i have nothing to lose i might as get a hobby and forget the bad things, I CANT !!!! I hate my family so much !!!!!!everytime i try to do something new I get mad at!!! I cant follow a healthy lifestyle !!!!!! I cant talk about it, i cant do anything, I can only wait to get more pain !!!!!!!!!I feel like the devil is in me, all i can think of is how to end my life, I quit bodybuilding, going out, watching movies, talking with friends....I CANT DO ANYTHING!!!!

I feel worthless, everywhere i go i get mocked at, i'm the blacksheep, the ugly duckling, i try to rise but i always fall, i always get humiliated and face disappointment and pain everywhere at everything, what have i done??all i ever did was help people !!!! most of the good guys are gone now, abroad, i'm left alone....I am in pain !!!!:cry:

 

It may all seem like doom & gloom but don't give up. Why do you feel like their is a devil inside you, have you done something wrong?

Do you have anyone you can turn to, for support. Keep fighting and once you get through this storm, it will make you a whole lot stronger and you will be glad that you stuck in their and got through it.