I've been pre-programed by my father that everything I do should be perfect, but at the same time, everything I do do is wrong in some way-shape-or form. I'm unemployed with absolutely no money. My daughter stays with my mother in law during the day because we don't have the food to feed her. I've been trying to get a job, but nobody contacts me. My family doesn't have anything I can do for cash and I have better morals than to steal from people. I'm lazy, stupid (but with a 145 IQ), fat and just an all around loser. I just wish that someone would shoot me or I'd die of a heart attack or something. I hate life.