I just want to end it all right now. I can't stand the emptiness inside. Sitting by the phone waiting for it to ring. Hour trip to the hospital. Caring for the family for however long it takes and then an hour home. The trip home is the worse part. That is when I cry. Mary, I miss you. I wish you were here with me. I wish you were here to take away the lonliness and pain. Why did you leave me?