my depression is the worst its ever been. I even wrote my suicide letters today. I am so sad that I no longer want to spend another moment in this pain. I went to the hospital last week told them I was suicidal they said I just have to wait for my counselling. I give up. I cant work ive been been signed off the past 6 weeks I feel hideous I no longer feel like myself. I am just an empty broken hearted depressed shell.