I just want sleep

Discussion in 'Mental Health Disorders' started by darklogic, Sep 22, 2008.

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  1. darklogic

    darklogic Active Member

    I scored a 100 on that depression test and I was being completely honest.

    I've had some kind of mood disorder for as long as I can remember. I feel terrible. I cry and I sleep all day or just lay in bed even when I can't sleep anymore. My friends call me and I ignore them. I do things just because I know they are bad for me.

    Very rarely I will get bouts of hypomania and have a hard time sleeping. So I might be bi-polar. I don't know. Mostly just extremely depressed.

    I'm doing better these days technically. If I can concentrate on work or school it helps me forget. I can still make myself get up and do the things I have to do but then I have no energy for anything else.

    The low self esteem, sadness and loneliness part is no fun but it's become my personality and I think it's almost funny sometimes. I can deal with those aspects. It's being so tired that is the worst part. I can't explain how tired I get. At a certain point it hurts me to still be awake.

    If I don't kill myself I'll just end up sleeping my life away. It sucks.
     
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