I really do. Is it too late? Anorexia since I was 11 and I really think
I should just end it because my body is already so damaged
I'm scared I will have another heart attack and at least I would
be in control of when I die. I know this sounds crazy. I don't want to die,
but living in this state of constant panic and the thoughts of why bother,
the doctors said I am already on borrowed time, just make me
think maybe I have wasted enough time here being scared of death
I should just end it because my body is already so damaged
I'm scared I will have another heart attack and at least I would
be in control of when I die. I know this sounds crazy. I don't want to die,
but living in this state of constant panic and the thoughts of why bother,
the doctors said I am already on borrowed time, just make me
think maybe I have wasted enough time here being scared of death