I finished school about a year ago and I was heavily into lots of drugs at the time. I became alot more cynical during these years as well. Also I couldn't find a job relating to my degree after I graduated(surprisingly) either so I had to move back with the rents where I don't know really anybody in the area. Basically my outlook on life is pretty bleak now. I just want to cease to exist because I'm a burden to my family and society for that matter. I really don't see the point to life. Nothing really inspires me anymore. I honestly don't care about having some well paying job where in the future I could get a bigger tv, a house, nice clothes, etc. That stuff doesn't any substance to it. I used to foolishly think there was a purpose to my life, but now I see it as a pointless existence. Really why am I here? Just so I could be another of the countless billions to survive and replicate? I feel trapped in this existence and I want out.