I've felt better for last couple of days, but today it just hit me again. I'm so tired. I've self injured myself by ice-burning my hand and legs, purging and not allowing myself to eat. But still I feel like I can't hurt myself enough. Some of the burns are visible, because I actually wanted someone to ask me if I'm alright. But no-one asked. I want to reach out, I want to tell someone I'm not okay. But I can't do it if I'm not asked. I really just feel like I wanna fall asleep and never wake up. I feel like I don't matter.