I just want to cry...

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by Rukia, May 11, 2007.

  1. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    ... but I can't. :sad:
    "They" don't bother me much anymore(I'm starting to get lonely :tongue:), but "they" have left me this numbness. I should be both sad and happy right now, but it doesn't feel right. :unsure:
    I bought a caravan with two of my friends today. They are very exited about it, and we're planning on how to use it this summer, how much fun we're going to have. I'm not exited at all. :sad:
    My mum was in a bad mood when I came home, and it made me feel like I was 12 years old again, even though I thought it couldn't bother me anymore. :mad:
    I got a C on my first exam, and that's great because I thought I had failed. I did feel a bit happy about it, but then I realized that I have no one to share it with. I can't even tell my parents because of my mothers mood. :sad:
    This should have been a great day, but I'm still feeling suicidal. The only reason I'm alive is that I hate to let people down. :sad:

    I just want to cry because then I would at least feel like I'm alive.
     
  2. Greenforest

    Greenforest Well-Known Member

    If you cant cry, then yell, release your rage!

    It hurts to hold it all inside. I also cant cry (partly because being male, but also some unknown reason) and raging can help sometimes.
     
  3. Rukia

    Rukia Well-Known Member

    I never yell, mostly because I don't like to raise my voice. :unsure:
     
  4. Greenforest

    Greenforest Well-Known Member

    Then hit a punching bag until you're too tired to move your fists. Or exercise heavily.

    Or if you can, try to remember some sad moment when you have last time cried. Propably wont help at all, but if you could get yourself on that mood, you could cry and at the same cry all the tears you've kept inside.

    Just my useless tips. :smile: