for the first time in nearly 3 years, I feel like just dying. I cant handle life anymore. I got this feeling that i havent gotten for 3 years and I cant take it its ripping me apart. I need help. but i dont know what to do. will i end up feeling like this everyday of my life again? I ruined my life. in a week. I ruined my life in a week. apparently, that can be done. why am i such a fuck up why did I do everything I did why cant it be fixed when i tried to fix it. i just want to die but i cant cause i dont wanna hurt my family. i dont know what to do.