Its obvious that no one likes me on Earth except my family and maybe a few friends. But around the world (on the boards for so called "support") they want me to die. They have been doing research on me (go to www.schizophrenia.com under "people diagnosed with schizophrenia" then go to the thread called "diagnosed with schizophrenia" started by "tinybird" who is my mom. You will see a nasty attack once again (not the first time by him) I won't mention names because that is against the rules but I know you guys are smart enough to know what the attack is. He hates my speeches, my art, he thinks I am faking my schizophrenia, basically he hates everything about me, so I wrote a PM that basically says that if I commit suicide because of him and many others, he has blood on his hands. I have no interest in anything anymore, its useless. I am in the middle of a show, people are rooting for me to die, yeah yeah yeah, die, die, die! Go do it! This person gave out personal information about me on the Internet, my real name and where I live. My mom tried to defend me, but this a**hole is on the attack. I hope something happens to him, perhaps an "accident." People like him do not deserve to live and in fact if I ruled the world, I would kill all the bullies and criminals on this planet. People who go out of their way to hurt others have no reason to live. Its not just one person who hates my guts. And on others when I'm begging for help, hardly any responses but when another person writes the same thing they get tons of responses. I hate myself, no one likes me so I need to die. The ONLY thing that is preventing me from killing myself this minute is some art shows coming up in April and May. That is literally the only thing to live for, and I bet something will go wrong there too. I truly thought people liked my art, but apparently its not good enough and "I can't make a living off of it" because "it sucks." My business sucks, oh when was the last order? Months ago? I hope the government fires that laser beam and this time NOT MISS by an inch! I don't want anyone else to get hurt so I won't tell them to set off the bomb in my neck. Maybe the nanobots and snake machines can kill me from within, I'll give them permission to do that. I am nothing but a useless waste of space. What am I worth, $600 something a month? Big bleeping deal, that's below minimum wage. I thought by now I would be off SSI and make a lot of money, all the cash flow projections are so off it isn't funny. The zoos that promised to order never did. The people who wanted commission work never followed through. That huge art show in Hollywood that I was telling everyone about the person lied to me, my name WAS on the list and he took it off, saying it was a "mistake." Absolutely nothing is going to plan. Just for the worst. I bet that jerk is reading this right now. He's probably laughing at this right now. If the gov doesn't get to me, hopefully the aliens will take me away and I'll get killed in their precious war of theirs.