What do you do when you just want to die? I like life, love it in fact, but it's filled with so much pain for me. I suffer from chronic back pain that feels like a knife is stabbing me every day. On top of that, I'm incredibly emotionally unbalanced - especially when it comes to women. You may not believe it but I'm an optimistic, but it's hard to find the strength to continue when all I feel is pain - physical pain, emotional pain. I really wonder why continue.