I think today is the closest I have ever got to suicide. I have been battling depression and OCD for years... but it's not mental illness that has lead me to this. It is an overall sense of emptiness. I am 26 years old... I have always wanted to have a relationship, and yet I have constantly fallen short. I get rejected every single time. And today I was rejected once more. I feel it will never happen for me, it never has despite all my trying, and never will. I want to die, because my life has become an empty black hole.. I have to keep going for my mum and sister... but deep down the best solution to my problem right now is to die. I don't want to suffer the torment of rejection, aloneness and emptiness anymore.