Everyday it feels like life just wants to play this little game called "f*** you!" I wake up in the morning, watch the news and all it ever is is doom, gloom and disaster. The rich get richer, the poor get poorer. The government f***s up and then says "Oops! Our bad! But you people are going to have to pay for it!" And I suppose the question that springs to mind is -- when does this sh** f***ing end?!!! I just feel trapped in this hell hole of a world right now and I want to escape! No...I don't want to die to be honest but the more I think about it, the more that seems like a welcoming idea to me right now. Sort of a 'get out while you can' type thing because I have a feeling it's only going to get worse and worse before it gets better...if it even can at this point...seems like everything's broken beyond repair right now. I don't even know where this is going. Everything just seems so messed up right now and I don't think I'm going to make it out alive. Feels like all the demons and the bad guys all just got ahold of the world and twisted it and distorted it and ruined everything! And I seem to be one of the few who "gets it". Whenever I bring it up, people are like "Oh that's just life! Deal with it!" -- WHY does that HAVE to be life?! Why doesn't anyone DO anything to change it?! I just feel like I want to be put to sleep at the moment and never wake up again. I mean, what am I to do?! Just sit on this rock and continue to be a glutton for punishment or get off while I can? At this point I think that whatever is or isn't on the other side would be far better off than living through this nightmare...even if it is giving those slimy f***ers the satisfaction! If I'm honest, I do have a plan in place at the moment to take my own life. Whether or not I'll act on it is another question but there is a plan in place for when things get too messy. All I'm waiting for is that one event to push me over to the point of putting this plan into action...whenever I feel like my life has been irreparably damaged, I WILL do it! I suppose I'm just waiting for the right time at the moment but it is there, firmly in place.