I'm 22 and I just want to die. The only person who I ever really loved since I was 14 and the only person who ever got me died in march he was 22. I hate myself. I'm fat ugly and even my boyfriend of 6 years doesn't even want to touch me. I won't leave him as I think if I do ill have no one and be even more lonely then I already do. I just want to die life would be better for everybody my mum hates me anyway. The only thing stopping me is fear. I'm scared of dieing I always have been but it's getting more and more appealing as time goes on. I'm done with this horrible world and done with myself