I don't want to be here anymore. I don't want to try anymore...why? I don't have to pay taxes, I don't have to try and get a great job, I don't have to be on time for anything. Maybe it was because I was physically abused as a kid. I talked to my dad about it, briefly, and he just talks like it was nothing. On top of that he would drink and hit my mom. Maybe thats why I hate him so much, maybe if I leave he'll actually take me seriously. He quit drinking 2 years ago, to late. I feel better now though, not like I did 1 hour ago. 1 hour ago I felt like crap.