Hi, the title is not something new around here, anyway, I'm Harry and I'm 22 years old, I'm from Greece and I was diagnosed with ocd and depression back at 2009, I started a medication and it worked but then I stopped it, why? I don't know, I just stopped them and I was still feeling good, then I felt a bit bad and started again, sorry to explain this thoroughly but I want to explain to you my situation, so you won't tell me I overreacting by wanting to kill myself.
Now after a long time that I finally stopped the pills (by myself) I feel like awful, but I don't think its depression, its too much problems on me, and I cannot stand them anymore, the latest problem I face is a joke I done with a friend by posting an ad on internet and I included a photo (yeah I was that stupid) and now I saw google can make this ad appear by just typing the name of my city and name of the site, if this comes out I will be humiliated at my school, they won't believe it was a joke, anyway, I have other problems as well, I have an uncle home that won't leave us, because we have grandma (his mother) and he believes we spend her money on luxuries and stuff, which we don;t, and he keeps making fights, I swore to kill him, and he stepped back, but he keeps doing this nerve-breaking psychological war to us, its just too much problems and I'm so weak and so little to manage and survive through them.
My life sucks, I have extra pounds, no diet works, none! I will die alone, if I don't kill myself first, I think I'm a very good person, but I also feel I don't belong here, nobody loves me and nobody will ever love me, I mean ok my mother and brother love me (my father is a lousy person, don't get me start on that-my parents are divorced and he ignores me because now he has a new family-hurray for me!) but seriously nobody loves me, I mean outside of the family, who will miss me? I managed nothing and I'm 22! other co-students I had in high school, are all successful, I just missed that train.
I say this while I'm pretty calm, I think I should die, I think my problems will end along with my life, and its not because I'm desperate, its because I'm sick and tired to move on to this shitty life....
anyway opinion or whatever....
Now after a long time that I finally stopped the pills (by myself) I feel like awful, but I don't think its depression, its too much problems on me, and I cannot stand them anymore, the latest problem I face is a joke I done with a friend by posting an ad on internet and I included a photo (yeah I was that stupid) and now I saw google can make this ad appear by just typing the name of my city and name of the site, if this comes out I will be humiliated at my school, they won't believe it was a joke, anyway, I have other problems as well, I have an uncle home that won't leave us, because we have grandma (his mother) and he believes we spend her money on luxuries and stuff, which we don;t, and he keeps making fights, I swore to kill him, and he stepped back, but he keeps doing this nerve-breaking psychological war to us, its just too much problems and I'm so weak and so little to manage and survive through them.
My life sucks, I have extra pounds, no diet works, none! I will die alone, if I don't kill myself first, I think I'm a very good person, but I also feel I don't belong here, nobody loves me and nobody will ever love me, I mean ok my mother and brother love me (my father is a lousy person, don't get me start on that-my parents are divorced and he ignores me because now he has a new family-hurray for me!) but seriously nobody loves me, I mean outside of the family, who will miss me? I managed nothing and I'm 22! other co-students I had in high school, are all successful, I just missed that train.
I say this while I'm pretty calm, I think I should die, I think my problems will end along with my life, and its not because I'm desperate, its because I'm sick and tired to move on to this shitty life....
anyway opinion or whatever....
