I freakin can't take it anymore!!! I just don't understand why all my so called friends are turning into such backstabbing bitches!!! I have always been a nice person but, after my brother died my life just kinda spiraled downward and I completely changed who I was. It just seems like my life is finally getting a little better and I start feeling happy again and back to my old self something or someone comes along and takes it away from me. Its like a never ending cycle. EVERYONE, hates me, everyone critizes me, everyone, judges me, everyone wants me dead. And its mostly over the STUPIDEST things in the world! I just want it to fuckin stop, I want the past to stay there and NEVER resurface! I honestly don't know how much more of this I can take more less how much I want to take!!! Some days I feel like I dont belong on SF, but this is NOT one of those day.