Things with girlfriend have come undone. Apparently...
- she loves me
- wants me in her life
- would miss me terribly if i left (we live together)
BUT...going on what she is saying..and we havent been intimate in a while, and other things..
- she isnt "in love" with me anymore. She hasnt said as much, but thats the feeling im getting.
We have agreed to stop calling ourselves "partners" officially. Its pretty obvious its over :sad:
It fucking sux :sad: I really wanted this to work out, I really care about her, give her heaps of affection, probably too much LOL im really not your TYPE A guy...Im more into the hugging and kissing than she is, which is probably opposite of most hetro relationships. But ya generalization
Anywayz im drinking today, she bought some beer, which was nice. Beer makes me happy, sad as that sounds, I realize just how much I freaking miss it.
When i say "I want to start again". What im saying is I just want someone that really loves me and wants to be with me, and likes the affection. Im not sure i can go back to singledom without going crazy, but I think thats exactly what is going to happen soon as I get enough money to move out.
Anyone thx James for your reply. Hope your having a fine Christmas.
Right now im just gonna drink what I have left, and hopefully tommorow I can get some more money to really get stuck into it. I think I need it tbh.
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