I Just Want

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Aimee_in_Wonderland, Sep 30, 2009.

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  1. Aimee_in_Wonderland

    Aimee_in_Wonderland Well-Known Member

    To Scream
    but it wouldnt make a difference.
    it wouldnt change anything
    wouldnt make me feel better

    wouldnt make you notice.
    i sometimes wonder why the hell i bother.
    i know what i am to you.
    i dont pretend to be something im not.
    and to be honest.
    im never going too

    but like it would make a difference.
    ill be fake again
    ill smile
    ill laugh
    but they will all be fake.

    i give up.
    i give up on me
    and this life.

    i cant do this anymore...
    i wont do this anymore.
  2. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    :hug: Here if you need to talk aimee.
  3. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Hi Aimee scream it does help a little bit ihope fake smiles can become real ones someday got to let go of the pain first I hope you are still working through your pain with your therapist. Always here if you need some support take care of you first okay:hug:
  4. planechaser

    planechaser Well-Known Member

    A fake laugh can turn into a real laugh..By laughing in ways you havent laughed before..Try thinking of really weird laughs you have heard in the past and try copying them. It could turn into you laughing at the laughs. Or making funny faces in the mirror. Finding something that used to make you laugh and smile and feel good in the past could be something to try thinking about. Staying in that good moment and eventually a real smile will be on your face again...

    What were the things that made you happy in the past?
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