I'm 24 years old. For as long as I can remember I have felt this way. I can't find anything anymore to make me happy even for a second. I just can't take it anymore. I can't find any reason anymore xxxx. I have dreams of growing up and being happy. Every dream just fades into how I'm such a loser. Who would ever really care? I can't offer anyone anything. All I want is to die. I feel like I'm in a pit I can't get out of. Iv been in it so long everything has passed me by. I'm too tired to try and catch up. I will die one day. Why not today? what's the big deal? My parents would be sad I guess but iv been nothing but a disappointment so what's the difference? God loves me? Never got that. Why won't he save me? This isn't life... This isn't what I'm supposed to be. I can't do it anymore.