Life just is so hard. Thereis a million reasons to say goodbye but only one reason to stay. That reason use to be enough but even that is waring thin. The hurt is just to much to handle anymore. It seems to haunt me. I just want to take my last breath and say goodbye. I can not deal with any of this anymore. I just want to scream but when I open my mouth all that is there is silence and fear. The tears only seem to make things worse not ease the pain. I just can't do this anymore.