I just.......

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by na-taya, Aug 27, 2016.

  1. na-taya

    na-taya Well-Known Member

    I just don't know what I can say any more that's just not repeating the same rubbish over and over

    I get scared to even post on here and ask for help and when I do I have to talk myself into it for a good while.

    I hate feeling so alone and desperate, I hate how this makes me need to rely on others so much to help me through. I hate myself for it being able to do this on my own, for getting stuck back in the same place, I hate I was found just a smudged to early in 2009.......


    It's only a matter of time now before......I try again........it's just a matter of when....
     
  2. na-taya

    na-taya Well-Known Member

    Not* being able
     
  3. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    You're not alone here. You know how much I care about you and I hope you can recover from this. Keep talking to us and keep sharing your thoughts, you're amazing girl :) Don't let anyone tell you any different. When do you nextmeet with your case manager and psychiatrist?
     
  4. na-taya

    na-taya Well-Known Member

    Thanks sweety.

    Case manager in two weeks and psychiatrist is a few weeks. In September sometime.
     
  5. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Good, not so far away, do you have plans to tell your case manager certain things? How do you feel the psychiatrist can help you? I know sleep is a major issue for you so you might want to start on that :)
     
  6. na-taya

    na-taya Well-Known Member

    I don't feel they can help that seems to be part of the problem.......
    I'm working on my sleep as best I can right now.
     
  7. na-taya

    na-taya Well-Known Member

    I don't feel they can help that seems to be part of the problem.......
    I'm working on my sleep as best I can right now.
     
  8. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Hmmmm I think they can help hun you just can't see that right now. Let them know exactly what you want help with and see how things pan out. I know you are doing your best on your sleep at the moment but maybe trying a different approach would be best? For instance instead of taking temazepam (or with it) talk to a counsellor, they can help greatly to improve the quality of your life :)
     
  9. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    Know we are always here whenever you need us. I hope your case manager and psychiatrist can help you feel better soon.
     
  10. na-taya

    na-taya Well-Known Member

    I don't really see what I want help with or how they can do it. I don't want.to be here but no body can help me with that so.......yeah...

    I have an appointment to find out how therapy can best help me and will go on a wait list of max 3 months or some rubbish.
    But yet I still don't see how it can help. I've had 7 therapist over my years this will be my 8th.
    I just agreed as my cm said it was basically either therapy or the mental health facility that not hospital but supported living for up to 4 weeks.

    See look here I go again babbling about myself......I hate me


    @Petal thanks for your continued support *hug*


    @brknsilence thanks you very much, hope your doing ok *hug*
     
  11. brknsilence

    brknsilence Well-Known Member

    Hugs

    Don't lose hope. Keep talking if it helps. We're here for you.
     
  12. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Did you find any of them helpful at all? The waiting list sucks I agree with you on that. But maybe if you go private things will work out better. Do what I did, look up all the counsellors in your area explain a bit about yourself, tell them what you can afford and see who gets back to you. I know it is draining but do not give up because then I'd have no one to have 4am chats with about mom having canaries and flamingos on ritalin with :p I heart you <3
     
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