I hate my life. I really do. I grew up with an abusive mother and a father who abandoned me. I was molested by two different men growing up. My mother went into a coma when I was a teenager and died a year later leaving me orphaned. The only person who loved me growing up was my grandmother and she died in September. I have worked really hard to make a life for myself and be a survivor. I even earned a master's degree and thought I had found the man of my dreams. Recently he told me he didn't love me and stopped speaking to me out of nowhere. We had been friends for years and he had begged me to be with him, then said the more time he spent with me the more he realized he had no feelings. He won't even speak to me now. I had a called off wedding years ago after a bad relationship with someone else. I just can't seem to succeed in life and nobody ever seems to care about me. All people do is lie to me, abuse me and leave me. I never thought I'd feel this way just for a relationship, but I never thought I'd be so ready to marry someone who would apparently think I was just nothing out of nowhere. I have made several attempts and they have all failed. I can't even succeed at ending my life. I just don't wanna be here anymore. I've been hurt too many times in life. Therapy and medication don't help. I want to be with my grandmother but everything I've tried has failed.